Someone asked me to explain just what it is that the doctors are telling me not to worry about.
This entry is that response, mostly.
(anybody else hearing the dramatic music from Law & Order or a much older legal drama that shall remain nameless at this time?... how many stories are in the naked city?)
Aherm.
In any case, surely this entry belongs in the the body blog, as noted below with a link to the specific start of this particular body saga, and surely some sort of fashion of it will appear there, just for the record, but here and now I bring it to you here in this blog because this used to be a daily and the babbler is craving release and attention (and ego is starving for praise and adoration, though this entry probably isn't the way to satisfy ego's insatiable hungers... luckily there is food to shut him up) and ultimately, it is my duty to delight and offend, as a blogger and a friend, depending on perspective.
So let's get to the nitty gritty of this probe now.
There is growing concern in the sub-net of my brain about the apparent deterioration (or lack of healing) of the skin just inside and outside of the anus. Several GI Specialists tell me there's nothing concerning in the rectum when they look in there. A colonoscopy from Feb 2017 came up clean. A Hematologist and Nephroogist have given me clean bills of health (heavy on the bills). The last visual exam was last month by a PA at a highly respected GI Center and she said to use Desitin, not to wash it off, and made it seem as though it was a bad case of diaper rash.
What I know and tell them is that it has become progressively worse over at least the last 3 years. That it started as what I thought was an occasional hemorrhoid flare up maybe ten years ago that would occur a couple of times a year after hard bowel movement. That was treated with over the counter suppositories and the flare up would go away in a day or two.
This increased over the course of a decade and moreso in the last three years. Over the last year, the skin has not been healing most of the time. Anal fissures developed and they are not healing either. I am following all the medical advice, rinsing after bowel movements, keeping clean and dry, not rubbing or wiping with anything even remotely abrasive (wet wipes only, just lightly before the rinse, mostly because of the texture).
The texture of the feces has made this much more challenging since this recent C;Diff incident which started in late February. That symptom is not completely gone, though I have not gotten definitive results as to whether the soft pasty smelly stools are due to C.Diff or due to the intestinal bacterial damage that takes time to rebuild.
In any case, what I experience is increasing pain and bleeding over several years to the point where now, almost every bowel movement produces the pain and bleeding and that is not something I want to be told is nothing to worry about.
I'm gonna print this and take it to my next doctor's appointments. Thanks for asking and helping me explain it once again. Maybe this explains it better than I have explained it before (I may have a failure to communicate going on with more than a few doctors and PAs. :)
I only know what I say, not what others hear.
As I mentioned (now and again) I try to explain my experience in this body now and then (again?) in the body blog. Definitely not as often as would be best for clarity and continuity of understanding, but that blog is an attempt to clarify and record the experience in this body for myself and anyone who cares (or who should want to understand, like medical professionals).
Compartmentalization is necessary for the multitasking life of an ADD genius.
Speaking of writing (oh, here's a casual segue to help you forget the last line), I want to share something else off the topic of personal experiences, but from the perspective of the writer I thought I wanted to be once upon a time. If you have time, I'd like an opinion. If you want your opinion to mater ore, introduce yourself. Anonymous opinions are welcome, but they are like the wind and their meaning and value can be gone in a moment. Can be, not definitely.
If I enjoyed (or engaged in) anal sex, I'd associate that with this edical concern, but I don't put anything into my anus or rectum bigger than a suppository and seldom insert those. My thumb is always up to the stars, but that's hoping I'll get a ride to a saner planet and not an invtation for an anal probe. In case this is one of those alien abductions I've heard about it is not just another alien abduction, it is mine and that makes it a high priority.
Intelligent beings would communicate, so it could be some ape-level aliens developed interstellar travel but did not develop the intelligence or maturity to do any more than fling feces and poke around for more feces from beings on other planets. Maybe that's what the universe is about. After all, almost every species produces some sort of excrement and we humans probably produce more feces than anything else in our lives. Could be the aliens are stopping off to pick u more fuel.
There may be an exception now and then, but everybody poops, sometimes.
Ok, back to my particular serious medical concern, I hope I explained well enough for you to understand. Feel free to ask probative questions if there are gaps in the knowledge I shared. Surely my occasionally over-indulgent diet does't help, but there is a serious concern in this otherwise irreverent entry that I would like Mulder and Scully to investigate immediately.
The truth is out there.
Narf :)
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