Tuesday, January 21, 2020

That's Not What I Meant (But it Could Still Be True)

So many times I don't mean what you may think I mean, but what you think I mean may be true just the same. It may happen to you as well, especially in blogging. For instance, just because I am referring to hump day as the mid-work-week day, does not mean I would not welcome a good sexual experience. There are likely better examples, but that one came to mind as I saw the title of previous entry before I started this one. Which leads me to wonder, do you have fantasies?

Fantasies. Did you think I was asking about sexual fantasies? Actually, now that I ask, I am. Originally, I was wondering if you had any recurring fantasies and what were the ones that rose up to your consciousness most. Your most frequent and desired fantasies may be sexual, but they may be something not physical at all. I would like to know.

My most frequent and intense fantasy can be summed up on these songs, in case you would like to know. Love, peace, happiness, honesty, sensitivity, awareness, comfort safety, security. Shared. Shared is squared, at least. Though shared can be to an infinite power too.

So don't let the laughter fool you, or the lust, for that matter. I could live without sex for the rest of this life if the rest would come. My laughter, especially in blogging, can be so momentary, so fleeting, so... lol... you may never come near the meaning even if we returned with more time and cared to delve deep into what might be felt beyond the lol. Within the laughter, the deepest feeling, and question, may slip right past you. Your laughter may be very different than mine :)

For instance, I entered 11/22/03 into a search box (I use ecosia these days, instead of google) and porn came up three times (you've been warned, so don't click in this paragraph if you don't want to see budity and sexuality, m'ok?) on the first page. Ecosia said it found 6,160,000 results. Oddly, I haven't searched for porn in months, at least, and seldom do. I haven't ever searched for it n ccosia, so that can rule out cookies or search memory or whatever. I tried 11/22/03 on google and it was very different. Google said it found about 20,800,000 results. Google obviously searches more databaes and pages than ecosia. Something to think about.

Planting trees and porn, ecosia is an interesting search engine lol.

Meanwhile, what I started out in this entry about was a lot deeper than deep throat or any sex thoughts. I mean, while sex can be quite distracting (if you paused to masturbate, I can wait). You have your fantasies, I have mine, if you recall. When I went to bed I though I was going to get a good long sleep, but the desire to share brought me back here and as the clock strokes past midnight, I wonder what you are doing and whether you feel alone in this world. Are we all just tangled up puppets?

Would you like to swing on a star?

There s a lot more to tis entry floating around in a variety of places (besides my head), but the date web search lead to other word searches, including for myself, and Hours later, simplicity still reigns, even if everyone complicates it.

T...b...c... ?

Narf :)








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