Did Anybody Notice?

Wow, so did anybody notice I was gone? Did it matter? If I stopped reaching out to people, would anybody care? I wonder how long it would take for anyone to notice I was gone. No less reach out to me. Jackson is the emoji princess. or maybe she's the queen. I wonder how many emoji's I'd have to ignore for her to call. I don't ignore. I'm just not like that. I know how much being ignored hurt. I supposed that may be how people who only reach out to me on Facebook feel and I don't ignore them on purpose, I just don't like going on Facebook regularly. I do it in marathon sessions now and then. Impulsively. Like right now because I brought it up.

So I disappeared from here and sort of appeared on Facebook, wandering around following links in notifications and pages and so on and I'm left with the same fuzzy feeling I feel most of the time I spend an hour on Facebook. I want my hour back.

Yeah, so did anybody notice all the time I was away? Did anybody notice I had so much more to say I mean did anybody notice I was just right here and gone of well I wonder... Did anybody notice? how I didn't (did not did not) carry on. I say, Sigh in an old fashioned way, I say... Would you? Could you? understand? Oh, Would you? Could You? Hold my hand?

The potential roommate ran away, that is, she moved back home to her family far away, guess she reached the end of her rope and I did not want to rush to find a place and adopt her. So burnt on trying to buy love and family, and broke. If I stay broke, I may stay alone, but I will stop the cycle of betrayal and abandonment and singing take another little piece of my heart now, baby... broken hearts, alas, are too easy to ignore today in this world where we've forgotten what we are living for...

I am tired... I am thirsty... I am hungry... I am lonely... oooooo,
oooooo, oooooooo, oooooooo,
I am tired... I am thirsty... I am hungry... I am lonely... oooooo,
oooooo, oooooooo, oooooooo,

I just want to purr
I just want to moan
I just want to cry
it hurts to be too much alone
oooooooooooooo,
I just want to sleep
I'm in this too deep
promises are meant to keep
seems on that I'm on my own
oooohhhhhhhhh
I just want to sigh
I just want to laugh
I just want to die
it hurts to be too much alone
oooooooooooooo,
Can I just say oooooooo
can I just say oooohhhh
can I just say oooowwwwww
just get lost in monotone

ooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
oooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hello can you hear me now
ooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
oooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwww
I would stop if I knew how

but I just want to scream
from the twilight zone
it must be a dream
it hurts to be this alone

I just want to sleep
I'm in this too deep
promises are meant to keep
seems on that I'm on my own
oooohhhhhhhhh
I just want to sigh
I just want to laugh
I just want to die
it hurts to be too much alone
oooooooooooooo,
I just want to purr
I just want to moan
I just want to cry
it hurts to be too much alone
oooooooooooooo,
Can I just say oooooooo
can I just say oooohhhh
can I just say oooowwwwww
just get lost in monotone

ooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
oooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hello can you hear me now
ooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
oooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwww
I would stop if I knew how

I am tired... I am thirsty... I am hungry... I am lonely... oooooo,
oooooo, oooooooo, oooooooo,
I am tired... I am thirsty... I am hungry... I am lonely... oooooo,
oooooo, oooooooo, oooooooo,

Some nights ache more than others.

a song from my heart to this world (in case you failed to notice)



in case it matters...