Thursday, May 26, 2016

Reambulating (or something like that)

There's a song in that, but for the moment, the thought that time keeps on skipping skipping skipping into the present moment and days pass without notice sometimes or something like that (my darling, though not clementine or your little orange too). I am just skipping along, alas, and the longing longs long tonight.

I realized after thinking about my poor plate performance at softball last night that I am very much a creature of habit on the softball field. I alternated plating first every other inning with another player and I believe that was on my mind as I was only partially there feeling out of place and it threw me off at the plate and I get very distracvted easily when I want to be distracted easily... or something like that. Did I mention that I hit poorly? We won 14-4. The field director and manager were there and last week was forgotten, no comment, which disappointed me but in the end is fine as I am no longer taking Wednesday night softball seriously. If another opportunity closer to home comes up, I'll jump at it.

Time seems to skip along these days and dang if I know what's going on half the time, but the song references continue and I continue to record the life here and in various other places just in case it matters to someone outside of my head and for the few who check in occasionally and for the one, wherever she may be and whenever she gets here. It is all about sharing, after all, and the root of that is the desire to share everything with someone who wants to, can, and will share everything with me. The hopelessly hopeful romantic believes there is always hope (I hope) so the process continues.

I may have mentioned or forgot to mention (details running rampant) that I snacked before and after softball, which counts as dinner. Leftover Taco bell and leftover canned chicken, spaghettios, golden mushroom soup, and so on. Yes, canned and fast foods, that's life (and the death of me) these days. If the one is Vegan, I'll adapt.

I may not have mentioned that fell asleep shortly after the after softball snack that was the second half of dinner and woke after 2am and stayed awake again. Yes, that seems to be a pattern. I showered, wrote a bit (or vice versa) and then played Bridge for the last couple of hours and here we are. Wishing somehow you were here again cuz all I ever needed was the one, cha cha cha. We must remember this, or something like that.

I want to fall in love again
I do it all the time
with life and love and everything
and even words that rhyme

but I also want to find someone
who falls in love like me
so we can fall in love as one
together through entropy

through eternity
through infinity
sharing everything

completely and
unconditionally
sharing everything

I want to give myself to someone who
knows the intentions at my core
to care for someone who cares for me too
so we need nothing more

through eternity
through infinity
sharing everything

completely and
unconditionally
sharing everything

I am a hopelessly hopeful romantic
a child lost in innocence
searching for someone who understands
the shared experience

through eternity
through infinity
sharing everything

completely and
unconditionally
sharing everything

over and over the song is the same
with every new moment we fall in love again
and when we get tired we sleep in each others arms
only to wake eager to continue living love's charms

through eternity
through infinity
sharing everything

completely and
unconditionally
sharing everything

Yes, the one has been on my mind tonight :)

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